Exposition
Metamorphosis
> JULI 2 T/M AUGUST 28 2025 Drawings by illustrator Heina dokter in the JACOBIKERK, ST. JACOBSSTRAAT 171 TE UTRECHT
Why I make these drawings
I had a burnout in 2023. It got to the point where I said to God: take everything, my whole life. I can't do anything with it anymore. Maybe you can still do something with it, God? I also gave my drawing career to him at that time, that was perhaps the last thing I (unconsciously?) didn't want to get rid of yet. I was in a church service at the time. Nobody told me to do this, it was the feeling of, I just can't do it on my own anymore, and you made me, so you might still know a solution, because I can't take care of my children like this, without energy, etc., you can have everything, then everything will be fine! After the service, the speaker said that you could come forward so that they could pray for you. I said to God: 'If you want me to come forward, someone has to come with me.' Because I didn't dare.
The next moment a man sitting behind me tapped my shoulder and said:
'I hear from God that you don't dare, shall I go with you? ' So I go with them, they pray for me and lay their hands on me.
My head cleared up a lot then. I suddenly wanted to read the Bible completely and I still do. I found that difficult before this event, but not anymore. I want to know everything about who he is. I come across all kinds of things in the Bible: answers to questions and God's love. What I read moves with what I experience.
I experience peace and love. It keeps coming back. Fear has fallen away from me, restless nights have disappeared. I have direction and a purpose and love. Trust in God.
Someone prayed for me a week later. I was partially healed then. 2 months later my burnout was completely healed. I sang along to Psalm 91, a version of ‘Project of Love’ (I am a fan of this music). My father had his birthday that day, and everyone was surprised that I joined in the whole day. I am so happy that I can do things again! I had not been able to make my own work for a long time because of the burnout.
Not everything that bothered me has been healed. I am still often tired. But I can take care of my children and draw again. I am very grateful to God. He is still the same. I have also noticed that it causes resistance. And life here on earth is not perfect. But with him I can handle it. I would not want to go back.
Jesus has shown me images every now and then after that. It is so special to discover that He can come so close. And getting to know Him is wonderful. He is so loving. He has shown me how much he loves me, that all my sins are forgiven. I also started drawing those images. By drawing a Bible text I also learn more about him.
A course in listening prayer from New Wine was organized in our church. I learned a lot about hearing God's voice there. It is not a one-way street between us and God. God speaks in many ways. First of all through his word, the Bible. Sometimes a text stands out. It is just what you need or sometimes he lets you know what is going to happen. Nothing he says contradicts the Bible. He answers questions in dreams, or in nature, through what people say. He is everywhere and always close by.
I hope that the Bible texts in drawings of this exhibition will speak to you. Let yourself be comforted, built up, amazed and encouraged by our loving Father.
Jesus is the best friend you can imagine. Give your worries to Him, ask for help. You do not have to and cannot do it alone. Let us pray for you.
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